In July I'll be a star

Out on the patio in July cloudy Look

still a piece of star stuck in the crevice

between my middle & ring finger Promise

I won’t lose it The finger or the ring

or the star? Or accountability keep me close

but not on a leash please Waiting

for you to say I love you Too much

to lose for me to lose This time

last summer barely knew you on the phone Last

winter made you wait in the rain The weight

on my feet replaced with lightning & water filled

cavities Nobody knows about how all I wanted

was to fall like senescent leaves Like ant bodies

in puddles To be tidy clean pretty covered in violet

violence unreachable Eyes locked under satin A coffin

Reminder to say I love you while you can Forgot

to mention all I wanted was for everyone to wonder

How big blue beautiful California skies are & No

I’ll never shut up about them My way of pressing

myself into the stars Hope you’ll look up once in a while

& think of me How you loved me Do you